Thursday, December 25, 2008
a note to myself;
breathe in, breathe out, its time to let him go. its hard but you can do it, just never give up on yourself. you can't say you're happy when all you do is cry. you can try and try but one day, trying just won't be enough. after a million tries, you'll notice that it just made things worse so stop holding on. you know NOTHING is gonna change, its like this and it will always be like this. let it all go, come on at least try. i can't promise that it won't work and i can't promise that you'll be happy right away, it honestly takes a lot of time. i can promise you that once its all said and done, you'll start brand new. you'll learn to smile and love again. it may take time but thats what you need is time. time for yourself, to work on yourself. don't let the memories or the pain stop you from being happy. if being happy is without him, then you know what to do. move on, he's one out of a million. you deserve better, and you know that you have friends that love you. don't doubt youself, and don't over analyze on things. when you know, you know. be optimistic and view this opportunity as a chance to see if he was really the one for you. a chance to see if you couldn't find anyone better. if you don't give yourself a chance, you'll never be able to say i tried because in reality, you didn't. you're a strong individual, you have inner strength that will keep you optimistic. smile not because you have to but because you deserve to. don't waste your time crying over someone because he isn't checking on you or calling you because you don't know if you still have that spark. get it over with and don't waste your life crying over something that could've happend. be strong for yourself and you will stand out. someone is looking for you to make you happy and he's your prince charming. don't worry about trying to find him cause destiny will bring you together. its your life now go out and live it.
smile, it only keeps you stronger.
my heart still bleeds for you.
