Saturday, April 03, 2010

It is not rational for someone to fall in love with someone that she does not even know very well.
It is not rational for someone to think about that someone all the time.
It is not rational for someone to begin to want that someone beside her.


But since when did love make sense?


Friday, February 05, 2010

Most times, it's just a lot easier not to let the world know what's wrong.

Yes, indeed I am not happy.
I'm just very good at pretending.

I just know that I wouldn't do that if I were you.

I miss you, J.
I fucking miss you.


Friday, May 22, 2009

Noah: My Dearest Allie. I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you.

(ignore me, i'm writing nonsense.)

it's been almost a year now
(well 2 more months to be exact)
somehow i think
you're the reason i feel this way

for a long time
i felt more lonely than ever

seeing your face
seeing your smile

i felt a twisted knot inside

i never really showed
this other side of me

who still remembers

what it feels like to miss you
what you like and don't
the warmth of your hand
the way you teased me
the way you messed up my hair

each time we walk past each other
like strangers
i hold back
my tears
and my fears

i used to wonder
if we could ever be friends again

i cannot remember the last time i spoke to you
seems like forever
and forever is a long time

i told myself i'm over you
i just kept on pretending
and playing this game

alone

but i suppose i'm tired
just a little too tired now

maybe i'll stop pretending

you still make my heart skip a beat
do you know?


Wednesday, May 20, 2009

i think
it has come to a point
where i can't think

don't want to think
think that i think i'm not thinking

but actually when i think
of thinking that i think i'm not

i am thinking.

okay,
i'm not actually thinking.

ps. i don't know what i'm writing.
pps. maybe i'll delete this someday.


Tuesday, April 21, 2009

it's been a week now,
a long week.
i did that on purpose today. HAH.


Tuesday, April 14, 2009

its why
do i just
keep a
little thinking
of you, bit
m. more. this is so not right.


Saturday, April 11, 2009

"the dream will always be a dream."
why do i feel this way.
i dont want to.
maybe you should listen to my ipod playlist.
it's all about you.

tag/links

and now the stars
aren't out tonight, but
neither are we,
to look up at them.
why does hello feel like goodbye?
these memories
can't replace
these wishes I wished
and dreams I chased.
take this broken heart,
and make it right.

when will you save me?

stabbed my heart.